Gender disappointment

Is it normal to feel a little disappointed once you’ve found out the gender? I feel horrible and ashamed that I feel anything but ecstatic over the gender of my baby. I obviously still love and want my child. I just feel a little shocked.. it wasn’t what I was expecting.

I could really use some encouraging words for those of you who’ve experienced this. My husband thinks I’m a monster and honestly I feel like one. Like I don’t deserve my baby if this is how I feel. 😔