Hey everybody. I had a traumatic experience about a year and a half ago and I had nobody to talk to about it and I wasn’t addressing the situation for what it really was. It’s left me confused, hurt, and angry but I realized that I need to be honest to let go of that hurt and negative energy. The summer before my senior year, I was sexually assaulted. I don’t remember what happened because I was blackout drunk that night. Because I was under the influence, I blamed the situation on me and thought it was my fault. I don’t know what happened that night, the only reason why I know something happened is because one of the girls I was with that night told me I disappeared with that guy for a while. Once she told me that, I found a hickey on my neck. It wasn’t very dark so assumed he didn’t get very far. What I do remember is the next morning. I had a weird taste in my mouth for about 3 days. I brushed my teeth multiple times but it didn’t help. I don’t know how to describe this but my underwear felt a bit more damp than usual(like it was more than just discharge). I couldn’t stop touching my neck(this was before I realized the hickey). The people I was with that night refuse to tell me about what went on. What hurts about that is those people claim to love me but are still in close contact with my abuser. To anyone still reading, i’m sharing my story because I need to free myself from being hurt. I need to be a voice for the people who have gone through what i’ve gone through. You’re not alone and it’s not your fault.