My son’s birthday party is this weekend, I can’t believe he’ll be 2. His grampa, my dad, passed away on the 14th. We had his birthday party planned for a little over a month, made a facebook event thing, all that. The day before my dad died he said he was coming. I know I need to have his party and make sure my little boy has fun, I’m just dreading the actual gathering because he’s supposed to be there and won’t be.

My heart hurts, guys. and I don’t know how to deal with any of it.