I’ve got nothing left.

My life, my marriage is crumbling around me and I can’t stop it. It’s like a snowball rolling down a snowy hill. Instead of stopping it just gets bigger and bigger.

I married my husband on April 1st, 2018.

Our family consists of me, my daughter from a previous relationship, my husband and our 10 month old son.

I can remember the day our life started to fall apart. Our son was a week old. He started to get fussy. The fussiness just builded and got bigger with each day.

He doesn’t sleep. He never sleeps.

He never stops crying. I feel like we have done everything. He doesn’t have reflux, he isn’t allergic to anything. He seems 100% healthy. We have been to 10 doctors. All of which just tell us to wait it out.

I can’t wait any more.

My son is ruining my marriage.

We fight all the time. We never talk about anything. We can’t talk to fix the problem because our kids take all the energy, and when we try talking we get to frustrated and yell.

I know my husband is falling apart. I am too.

I don’t think he wants to be married anymore but is to loyal to leave. I get it.. I really do. I want to leave. I never pictured my life like this.

I would be gone for good if it weren’t for my daughter.

Sorry for the long post. I’ve got nowhere else to turn to.