Whats going thru my head.

I have been holding a lot of stuff in these days, and I just can't take it anymore! With nobody to talk to at all my depression is creeping up on me. I have so many thoughts going in and out of my head!! I cry almost all the time, I feel like my husband doesn't love me anymore bc I can't have kids. Even though he says "we can adopt my love" its just not the same! I had a positive pregnancy test like 4 months ago and we were excited!! Then the bleeding came and after that so did a negative pregnancy test. I feel like im falling apart....sometimes I don't even want to be married to my husband bc I think he deserves better, and he deserves someone who can give him children.