I need to vent

Ive been with the same guy for 3 years now , we’ve been through hell and back . He’s controlling and very mentally abusive ( why did I stay ) I thought maybe I could change him ( wishful thinking ) I’m currently 10 weeks pregnant with OUR first baby . He won’t accept it : the relationship is worse , I get called more names , my body gets talked about . I get told about another girl he cheated on me with ... he tells me it’s not his . He won’t sign any rights ... I’ve been to all the appointments by myself . I feel so awful. I don’t want to do this alone . We’ve talked about a family before , now it’s happening and is hell . Part of me wants to try and make him realize but then part of me wants different... he’s not a man and never will he one . I’m so hurt .