I can’t squirt for beans

My partner thinks squirting is really hot. We’ve tried and I’ve definitely felt the “urge to pee” building up, but no matter what, nothing comes out. 😠 It ends up feeling almost painful, like something’s not right, and we stop. I end up feeling frustrating and disappointed and (because I suffer from anxiety) worried that my partner will feel disappointed/unsatisfied too (he’s never said anything to make me feel that way. Mental health is so so fun.).

I’m starting to feel angry that I can’t seem to “just let it out” and squirt. I’ve done research but the lack of extensive solid scientific research into squirting makes it kind of a hard thing to tackle. 😓