After 7 years of Infertility

Here goes nothing.....

I dont talk about this much with people anymore. When I first started this journey, I was an open book. I guess I figured I would have had a baby by now. Now that I still haven't, it seems embarrassing that we have been trying for so long.

A little history.... I met my husband in 2011 we were married in 2012 and wanted to have a baby right away. We actually starting trying a couple months after dating in 2011. Anyways fast forward to 2012 about 1 year later I finally went to a doctor. They did a bunch of tests and told me everything was good, it just looked like I didn't ovulate on my own BUT NO DIAGNOSIS. I started clomid. Everything went great for a couple months but I was still super young and was not in tune with my body. Never timed sex just blindlessly following the doctors generic cookie cutter orders.

Stopped for a year... then once this health insurance almost ended I went back for a couple more months. Did clomid, some injectables consistant doc appointments. Still not really in tune and just hoped for the best. One time this doctor told me I ovulated on my own... Which gave me false hope for years... only to find out it was because the clomid was still in my system.

Took a longer break... then tried naturally a couple times. Nothing..... Finally last year I found a new doctor. She ran some tests... Diagnosed me with PCOS. Said I didnt fit the usual description, but the sacs around my ovaries said otherwise.

I was put on metformin and letrozole. Really liked both. But for whatever reason only did like 3 mi ths and stopped. I became obsessed with testing my ovulation. BFN'S after all these years was just harder to accept. I thought with a real diagnosis and meds this was it. But 3 months was all I could handle. I didnt want to schedule sex or stress about any type of test.

Late last year I just accepted I would be childless... It would be gods will if I had a baby. Then something happened. This year I lost my best friend (the flu) and my grandma (hospital negligence) Once she passed this baby fever has sparked. I realized PCOS would not stop me.

In the past month I have done a ton of reasearch... So last week I started a PCOS diet. I started looking up holistic ways. I want to give 1 more full year of trying naturally. Before going back to the doctors to take medications.

For the 1st time me and my husband have really sat down talked about this and shared mutual excitement. Normally he doesn't like to talk about it or get excited because he gets scared it wont happen. I understand because I too, have had a whirlwind of emotions.

Another reason is because we want to move to nashville next July. We discussed that no matter what happens we will be ok. It's time for a baby. ❤ Which normally hes the... we should wait.. so we can prepare. But you never know what life has instore, so full force ahead..

Oh I forgot the vitamin I am going to try since I dont have regular cycles or ovulate is.. myo-inosital. I'm really looking forward to trying this combination. Something just feels right this time. It doesn't feel like 7 long lost years.

Wayyyy long but I wanted to share this. I wanted reach out to anyone who has experienced this as well. Please share your stories of struggles or success with PCOS or infertility..

Here is a picture of me and my husband. I cant wait to create a little family.