Im beyond given up

I had tried so hard not to get my hopes up. But my period was a week late and even though all my tests were negative I still thought it would be my month. Well i was wrong. Im in so much pain from my cramps and im nothing but empty inside. Period emotions and pain are the worst when all they are is a reminder of is that you wont be a mom yet.

I dont know why it was so easy to get pregnant my first two times. They both ended in miscarriages and I just want my baby. Why isnt it our turn? Why wont it work now. I feel so drained.