(I am in 8th grade by the way)

I am really good friends with this guy in my year. He told me that he likes me and I told him that I like him back. He then asked me out but I said no. He has depression and has thought about killings himself before. Earlier this year I told the head of wellbeing at our school and he is now seeing professionals about his health but I don't think he is getting much better.

There are many reasons why I told him I didn't want to date him. One being that if I did and I fell in love with him or something, then he would go and kill himself or something, it would hurt me a lot more than it would in our current situation of friendship. Another being that we are so young so it probably wouldn't last and we wouldn't even have a friendship after, most likely.

When I said no, he was so kind to me and he told me he would wait years if he had to. He may feel this way now but I feel like it won't last and I'll miss my chance and will never get to be with him. He lights up the room when he walks in, and he is so easy to talk to about serious stuff.

I don't know if my choice was right and I am just so confused about everything right now. Please comment or message me to help me figure this out. Thank you.