Ladies, can I please have your help...

So I just need some insights to help my heart feel okay. So for some of you I know this will sound ridiculous, but I'm sorry, this is just 100% how my heart was created.

So my boyfriend of 2 years that I love more than absolutely anything in the whole world has a struggle. We are truly inseparable and are so in love. We're planning on getting married in the near future and I wouldn't trade him for anything. For anyone wondering we are 19 (me) and 20 (him) years old.

So his "struggle" is masturbation. He hates it, and I dont like it. It's my whole hearts desire to help him fight this battle to stop and love him unconditionally through it all. I've known about his struggle since he first told me about it 4 months after we started dating. He's progressed so well and is doing much better. The problem is, I just cant help but get hurt everytime he tells me that he failed. I'm always so thankful for his honesty, and always tell him how proud I am of him for fighting so hard. I know it's a very hard, if not the hardest, habit to break. Hes completely knocked out pornography, but he still sometimes gets distracted in the shower, and does it without any visual help. I'm so proud of this, it's already such a huge step. Hes told me sometimes he will think about me, and it overwhelms him so he will do it. Dont get me wrong, I'm flattered and appreciate that it's because of me, but my heart still stings because I want it to be solely between us, and so does he.

Like I said, I know it's a VERY long process, so I'm just needing insights, and stuff to remind myself that will help it be a little easier to understand, and for my heart to believe in. I will support him even if it takes 20 years.

I know some of you love it when your man does it, but we both dont like it. So all I'm asking for is advice on getting better at understanding the process, because we will always fight together to end it, because that's what our hearts desire.

Thank you to everyone who will read this and to anyone who will share their thoughts.😊❤