My husband took my son away from me...

So I need some comfort necause I have no friends and I can't sleep....

But I have struggled with depression and anxiety for over 10 years now. I started when I was 12 and after giving birth to my son. Ive been struggling to stay afloat.

My husband didnt run away with my son or anything dramatic but he took him away for 4 days so that "I can focus on myself" and because his family is throwing a party for his mom 3 states away.

This hurts me. I have told him I've been borderline suicidal and he left. And took the one thing that makes me happy. He didnt even consider waiting a week or 2 for me to get some time off so that we can all go together.

So what am I to do now? I can't sleep. I can't think. I can't breathe. I hate him right now for hurting me. I just want my baby.

He also has never dealt with mental health issues before. So I am always left in the dark alone. Am I wrong for was wanting to leave? Do I try to work something out? I always explain my ocds and how to do certain things but he never remembers. I am currently going to school, working part time. And trying to maintain a food and money budget. I'm tired...what do I do? Please opinions.