Would you stay?

I’m just so lost and hurt. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 5 years. The first few years we were on and off. The past 3 years we’ve been official. For a long time now I’m just having so many issues in our relationship. One of our biggest problems is communicating, so I’ve never really been able to talk about our problems or if I have it gets swept under the rug. Over a month ago I told him I wasn’t happy and why I wasn’t and that I’m about ready to leave. So he made some changes but some of our biggest issues didn’t change. I tried sticking it out but it had been hard. I finally just felt so done and over when I left for a week out of state to see family. We barely talked and when we did it was just about our son. And while I was gone I he asked if I wanted to leave and I said I had been thinking about it a lot. We talked a little about it but not really.. so I come home and again just tried to be fine. And I was. But it just kind of fell apart again. And I got to the point I started packing my things. He finally talked to me about our issues and said he really didn’t want me to go and he’s sorry. He said he wants to try to change and make me happy again and do what he needs to, to make us work. I told him I’d have to think because I love him but I don’t think I’m in love with him anymore. So we spent the day apart and I told him we can try. And we’ve been getting along good and he is trying. But idk it’s so hard for me because I just don’t feel the same anymore after everything. I don’t know if I can fall in love with him again. I just don’t feel that connection there anymore. And it’s really hard for me to because after 5 years and a child we should not be in the position in our relationship. I want to be married by now and happy, in love. And we are just so far from that. I don’t know how long I can’t wait to get to that point again. I feel so bad because he is actually trying finally, but I just can’t let go of the feeling that I don’t feel in love. And I don’t want to keep pulling his strings that I’m going to leave, no I’m going to stay, no I want to leave.. I just don’t know what to do😪💔

Sorry this is long, and sorry it’d be longer if I went into details about our problems.