Plus Size Ladies?! 😭

I am 5’7’’ and 245 pounds. 😭 I have always struggled with my weight, but at the age of 19 I started eating better and working out and lost 85 pounds! And I looked great and finally loved myself. Well at 21 I met my now husband and went on birth control. My life has been a mess ever since then. Uncontrollable weight gain, anxiety, depression, the list goes on. Long story short, I gained every freaking pound back. I haven’t been on BC for the past year, but I am so beyond stuck with the aftermath. 😭 I am devastated and desperate. I did strict paleo and working out 5 days a week for SIX MONTHS and didn’t lose ONE SINGLE POUND. No pounds, no inches, NOTHING. No dairy, no bread, no sugar, and no results. I was doing HIIT workouts that made me sweat like crazy and totally kicked my butt and NOTHING. Now I’m totally burnt out and defeated.

Any fellow Cysters had this issue and figured out the secret to success? Everything I did last time to lose the weight isn’t working this time. I HATE to even look at myself in the mirror. I don’t even have the motivation to get ready anymore because I look awful in everything I wear and just don’t see the point in trying to look decent. 😭 I need help. If you have any advice PLEASE let me know.