Rape??? Or idk...

Ok so I haven’t really talked to anyone about this...

But In 2017, when I was a senior in high school, I had a guy best friend... We were pretty close and I trusted him. And we would smoke together.

One night he invited me to come over and get high with him. I asked if I could stay the night cause I lived 30 minutes away from him and didn’t wanna drive high at night.

So we smoked and laid down to sleep... I was really high. I couldn’t really function. He begged me to have sex with him and I didn’t want to. But he still put it in... And I just laid there and let it happen. I was barely awake and I remember just laying there disgusted... After I left and went home, we never talked again. Cause every time he tried to talk to me he was always sexual... Even now, 1.5 years later. He has a girlfriend and a baby now and he still tries to talk to me and be sexual...

I never told anybody or anything cause it was my fault for getting into the situation? I just pretend it didn’t happen... idk, it’s just been on my mind recently.