Emotional

I’ve been so mean lately. My boyfriend of 1.5 years is just so sweet to me and I don’t know how. I was so moody tonight and kept being very rude and it’s like I’m trying to push him away because of how emotional I am lately. Everything gets to me. I don’t want him out of my life at all I love him and I need him very badly. He’s my whole life. We call every night and talk before saying goodnight. And tonight he asked to call and I said I don’t wanna talk so don’t bother. I mean how rude was that?! He still replies as sweet as ever, “I’m sorry babe. I love you and I hope you sleep well!” What’s going on with me???