I’m emotionally drained.. thread of hope 💔

Hello :( I’ll just get to the point but first thank you for taking your time to read....

I had a tubal reversal 9/14/17.

first day of last AF 09/03/18

On 10/01/18 I had my first faint positive on a hpt:)

On 10/02/18 I had blood work done in the ER and was positive, BUT they did not check for a HCG level . Why you ask ?? I asked too and could not get a straight answer. A sonogram and transvaginal could not see a sac or fetal pole. Diagnosis- was to early in pregnancy

On 10/12 I woke up to heavy HEAVY BLEEDING..

I went back to ER and this time i was told my HCG was 50. Sonogram, and transvaginal did not show a sac or fetal pole .

Diagnosis- “threatened miscarriage” OR still to early in pregnancy. I was also told I had a cyst on my left ovary.

Today 10/14- I have been testing with hpt. I know chances are I’m having a miscarriage.. but I guess testing still gives me hope as to they still show positive and I know it takes time for the HCG to leave your blood completely..

I am seeing my OBGYN tomorrow morning..

I’m not trying to get my hopes up :( ..(deep down I’m really hoping it’s just my cyst that erupted or some other reason for bleeding)

The bleeding is so heavy .. like Halloween scary heavy!! I’m not filling pads like crazy, but when I release (sorry tmi) it’s very VERY thick and vampire red.

Anyone gone through something similar and have light at the end of their tunnel :( ? Just trying to keep hopes up but I know chances are low and I’ve probably lost my baby... 😔