Anxiety and sex

Keep in mind when you read this, I have terrible anxiety when it comes to sex and I really need to vent about this but I feel uncomfortable telling my friends or anyone I know.

Today my bf and I were fooling around. He was fingering when he mention something about jizzing in his pants. You could see stains on his shorts and he was trying not to touch it and then touch me. I'm pretty sure he took precautions not to get any on me and I'm pretty sure that I'm not pregnant from it but it worries me so much lol.

I just had to type that out and I would rather a random stranger know that someone I'm close with.