LONG POST!!!

My sweet boy is 3 weeks old today. Long story short, as soon as we got home from the hospital my son would not latch on my boobs. I’m talking by the end, it had been 3 hours of me and my husband at 2am trying to get my son to feed and he wouldn’t.

My plan my whole pregnancy was to exclusively breastfeed...I couldn’t wait! Then he was born with the cord wrapped around his neck, a fever and high heart rate. I was able to hold him for 3 mins before they wheeled him off to the nursery to do some work...I didn’t get to see him for almost 4 hours later. I feel like I missed out on that special, important golden hour...where your baby is supposed to latch on and nurse and bond. *There’s no one to blame obviously, I’m so grateful to our doctors and nurses that took such great care of my sweetie pie*

So now I’m onto plan B, exclusively pumping. It has been HARD. A lot harder than I thought it would be. At first, my supply was pretty decent! By 10 days old, he was taking 3 oz every 3 hours! I was pumping every 3 hours and getting 3oz from each boob, so I was slowly building my stock up! Then, nothing! I’m BARELY getting 1.5oz from each side and I’m basically having to pump on & off for 2 hours just to get that! *I have 3 frozen bags in the freezer, 1 is 3oz, the other 2 are 4oz, and one 3oz bottle in the fridge*

So here’s my issue, I feel like my whole life is now revolving around pumping. It’s all I can think about...to the point where I feel like I can’t enjoy my sweet baby bc all I can think about is if I’m going to produce enough to feed him. I’m on the verge of just going to Plan C which is formula. Our pediatrician has already told me there’s nothing wrong with formula and if I need to do it, do it (FYI I don’t think there’s anything wrong with formula!!!). I feel like I’ve failed...and like my body has failed me. Does anyone have any experience similar to mine where they ended up needing to switch to formula?

Here’s a pic of my sweetie pie for fun 👶🏼💙