won’t be believed

— I don’t know where to start with this but i’m not in a good place every since my rape about 8 months ago. I’m ashamed of saying it because of the details about it. I went to go have sex (vaginal sex) and it ended up with him anally rapeing me. I’m ashamed to say anything because I feel disgusted. I also feel as if I went over for one type of sexual inter course that I should have known that would happen. I feel as if i told anyone they would think i’m stupid, disgusting. Truly before my rape if someone else told me that happened to them, I wouldn’t think that that would cause so much damage in life but this broke me. The anxiety and depression that has resulted has lost me friends and affected my grades bad. PS to all the people who have came forward about their expericance /rape/assault you are incredibly brave

question— is there any certain anxiety techniques that help you forget about these things or meds that have helped you from an experience like this plz comment!