Trying for my first baby... Never posted anything before but I really don’t have anyone who might understand. So here goes nothing...

I hear people complain all the time and I have heard jokes about “you can have mine”.... but the truth is I would give anything to have that. I’m trying so hard to achieve what others take for granted and I know I am not alone in this. One of the worst feelings is when I take a test and the results are negative. I wish others knew of the pain deep inside. I wish people actually knew how devastating it is to hear “you’re so lucky you don’t have kids”. I wish people understood the depth of the journey. The reality is they won’t. But God does. As much as I struggle and don’t understand... I know He will help me and others like me through this emotional roller coaster! Just know YOU ARE NOT ALONE!