Hey Mama's,

I'm sitting here and I can't stop crying...

I had my third and possibly my last c-section. I went in and tried to (TO)2LAC with my midwife. I failed to progress and baby was in distress so I ended up with another c-section. We later found that his umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck and strangling him with each contraction. I'm glad he's here and safe.

But, I'm having such a hard time coping physically, emotionally and mentally. I wish things would've turned out different. I really need some support, as my fiance and family can't understand why I'm not happy just to have and hold him.

I do wish you all love, peace and wellness. And I hope I can find me some, too.