My pregnancy has been absolute hell. Everyday I have been in some sort of pain, headaches, vomiting, contractions, preterm labor the whole nine yards. I tried so hard to keep it together and stay strong. I worked until 34 weeks when medicine the hospital gave me to stop labor literally almost killed me. I've been on bed rest since. My husband has been shit the entire time. He went to maybe three appointments, and his work would allow him to go to any that he wanted to so there is no excuse. He was gone for work for two months and the entire time I deal with my pay being messed up and struggling to even feed myself. All he wants to do is play video games or watch YouTube videos about his stupid fucking games. I do all of the cleaning, all of the cooking, we don't have sex we don't cuddle and we hardly ever kiss. At one point he thought I would find it funny and told me about how he made a joke about having sex with someone else's wife at work. I haven't been able to let this go. I feel like shit about myself and he doesn't even talk about being intimate with me but it bothers me to know that's how he speaks at work about other women, a joke or not. We have been arguing so much lately. Mostly because of how he talks to me and how I do everything and how alone I am. Today we got in a huge argument. I did my makeup for the first time in two months and we were going out to eat. On the way there he kept driving like an ass and having to slam on his breaks. He got upset at me when I told him he needed to let off a little. Then right before the restaurant we started talking about how I am scared for my induction on Tuesday at 39 weeks. And he started telling me I just have to deal with it and what I have to do to my body ECT. Like he has a say. Obviously this upset me, I said he is making me not even want him there. That I already do everything alone. I take care of him like I'm his mom and I know it's going to be worse and I am going to be more alone when the baby comes. That he is making me want a divorce because I have openly expressed how he has made me feel for months and he has done nothing but sit on his ass and play games or watch bullshit videos about games. I don't know how much I can take. I begged him to bring me home so now I am home, I took my makeup and clothes off and am crying alone in bed. I realize there are two sides to every story but I feel horrible. I feel like I've made a mistake and let him treat me how he does. I can't do it anymore