Fucking ex partner rant...

So basically a few days ago I was in hospital because they thought I was loosing my mucus plug and having contractions.

Me and the father have recently split up and he knew I was in hospital and the reason why.. he never came. My midwife said I need to take it easy, no lifting heavy stuff or stress. So my mum messaged him asking if he could spend the night with me as she couldn’t with an epileptic 7 year old at home.

He basically tells me to fuck off, calls my mum an awful mother for not being able to watch me.

AND YET! I still miss him, i get so lonely at night and upset. I’m still having pains (not contractions) just ligament pains from the contractions and I’ve never wanted someone so badly, I can’t shift this loneliness and the fact I have another baby daddy that’s a fucking arsehole.

Too top it off he told me it was my fault why I was in hospital.