I hate to complain, but this sucks!!!

I found out I had a miscarriage 7 weeks ago. My doctor gave me the choice of Cytotec or a D&C. I choose Cytotec, wanting to avoid risks of surgery. It was an awful experience. I ended up in the ER after having way more bleeding than expected and passing out. The good news was, they did an ultrasound and said everything was out of my uterus. Now, 7 weeks later, and still bleeding, they repeated and ultrasound, and it’s NOT all out😡. Now I have to get the D&C anyway. I’m waiting until after my upcoming vacation because I don’t want another thing ruined by this. I am feeling angry and sad. I just want a baby, and I feel like I will never get there. Sorry to complain, I’m just so frustrated.