Is this literally it for me?

Kat

I had a miscarriage at 16. Got pregnant at 18 and had my Rainbow Baby Boy Jayden who will be 3 November 7th at 19, had Naomi at 20, her birthday will be Feb 17th and she will be 2, and got my left ovary removed after I miscarried at 15 weeks, and lost one just recently at 4 weeks. I just want one more blessing so that by the time I have him or her all the older siblings can remember them as a baby :( Maylen my step daughter is 5.