VENTING....

How do I Flourish?

An 18 year old single mother trying her hardest to give everything to her 1 & 1/2 year old daughter.

I feel like I’ve been physically fighting my demons every single day. I try to remain positive all the time but everybody has their breaking point and mine makes me want to kill myself.

I feel like a shitty ass mother because I feel suicidal and because I can’t give my daughter everything.

I should be happy that we are both healthy individuals, but the thoughts I have of my financial income, which there is NONE, kills me every single time.

I hate my life... I don’t understand why everything is so hard for me. If it’s not one thing, it’s another. I just never had peace. I have problem after problem and I just feel as if I’m drowning. Drowning in unhappiness and worries.

More into my problem is that I’m getting absolutely no help. I understand that I made the decision to lay down and create this baby by myself. But it’s also like I see everybody else with so much help from their loved ones, and I wish I had that.

I wish I didn’t have to think about how I’m getting to work, who’s going to babysit my baby, or how’d I pay daycare. I wish my life was easier.

I just really don’t understand why my life has been this hard for me for the past 2 years😢...

I wish I could flourish already.