Sooo yah I am back

It has been a while since I had this app on my phone I hoped to never have to post in this group again but here I am I was pregnant with twins and my husband was so excited I was fearing pushing them both out but I was honored to have the privilege to be their mama we agreed on the names bella hope and jasmine star I was 5 months went to the restroom in the middle of class because I had pain everywhere went pee and found blood I hated the sick feeling I had then I had no medical attention because the school wouldn't let me off campus so I passed them both in my dorm with my roommate playing dr I held them they were perfect but not crying then I told my husband he was crushed .....I miss my girls .I wasn't even allowed to bury them I had to hand them to a friend a week later for her to bury . Now I dont know if we should ever try again