i know this isn’t really the place for this & it truly hurts me that i am considering this. I know that a lot of women have been trying to conceive for a while. this may seem as selfish to some but i really need advice. 😪 im due july 15 & this is my 1st pregnancy

I am in college & i am 20years old. I will be 21 in january. I will graduate college in 2020. I live about 5 hours from home. I don’t have a car & I have a part time job that gives me less than 20 hours a week. so basically all of my income is going to rent. I do have about $5000 saved up to buy a car and to pay off my braces. I have no real friends in my college town & therefore no support.

The child father & I have only known each other for about 6 months. He’s 23. He doesn’t really have family because his parents are dead but he has a sister that lives a state away. Last month he lost his job (unreliable transportation, he doesn’t have a car as well) he also has a 3 year old son. he says he’s unsure if we should keep the baby (i think he’s leaning more to not keeping it but is just waiting for me to say so first), he’s in my home town... 5 hours away. instead of talking about it he’s ignoring me but says he’s not ignoring me he’s trying to think about everything.

i always loved kids and wanted kids of my own. but now im stuck. deep inside i really want my baby but i know that i won’t be able to take care it by myself. i want to be an to offer it the best life that I possibly can. It’s just that he’s so unsure so i don’t think he’ll be able to offer me the help that i will truly need. I don’t want to do it by myself because I worked my a** off to get into school, im the first in my family. so i’m not sure if i’ll do more bad than good if i keep it or not. i think that if it was by someone else, i wouldn’t be second guessing myself.