INSECURITIES

I have such bad insecurities it’s horrible and I feel that it’s ruining my marriage. I am 5’4 and 227lbs 3 kids later . Before having kids I was so small I’ll post pic . But I am so insecure that I am always questioning why my husband loves me why is he with me ?! When he talks to his family back home I try to hide because I’m embarrassed of how big I am ! And I keep telling myself I’m going to work on myself but I just don’t ever . Just hate how weirdly my body is per portioned.

Sorry for the rant ladies !!!

My nephew n I