It’s OK.

It’s hard.. it’s hard being the one to watch everyone have babies. It’s sad that we sometimes feel like this is our own fault. It’s hurtful when no one understands what it’s like to have this disease called “infertility” in which ever form it comes. Young or old, we just want to be mommas. I don’t know about you but I feel like I know my babies already. I feel them in my heart and in my soul. I know they exist & I know one day I will carry my miracles in my arms. On that day I will cry tears of relief & JOY! But TODAY, I’ll take my last chlomid pill of this cycle & beg God to have mercy on my body & grant me the desires of my heart. And on Monday I will watch the ultrasound screen with a pit in my stomach hoping the follicles are mature enough. And two weeks after that I’ll hope to finally get my two pink lines. But today.. I’ll keep hoping.. I’ll keep waiting and I’ll keep praying. It’s OK. It’s OK. It’s Ok. Until I see you my babies. 🙏🏼💕