I don’t know how I’m going to deal with returning to work. I go back in 5 days, I will be working 40 hours a week and have an hour commute. She will be with my mom while I’m at work which makes me feel a little better but I still know she should be with me. I’ve never left her for more than three hours and she will be 12 weeks when I go back. I’ve been crying every single day and my anxiety is through the roof. My fiancé’s offered to find a second job but I would still have to work part time for us to make ends meet. My job is working with me and allowing me to just work longer days so I can have an extra day off during the week but they will only let me do it for two months. Plus the stress of pumping and the fear that we will not be able to continue breastfeeding. I’m a mess and this all went by too fast. She too little to be away from her mama and it breaks my heart. I am glad I have 1000+ pictures to help me get through the day.