The thoughts in my mind....

When your every thought is about your every move and if that random move, slight twitch or odd feeling unusual twitch, that odd scratchy feeling you've never felt before.... is that cramp normal or gas or what's going on now.... I feel a little bit of wetness i didn't feel 10 minutes ago.... is that urine??? Or do I need to worry is this it and was that blood I felt or leaking of my water..OMG is my water breaking now from that unusual cramp.. or was that really a contraction I felt and wasn't normal pregnancy feelings???? WHY HAVE I NOT FELT MOVEMENT IN A FEW MINUTES???? OK IT HAS been A FEW HOURS NOW... IS SHE ALIVE??? OMG IS THIS GAS I FEEL OR THE START OF CONTRACTIONS....???

This is what I randomly feel running through my mind several times a day right now... I am currently 21 wks 4 days... I have a cerclage but other than that she's very healthy very active and have had no other issues... My son was born 2017 at 23 wks 2 days from placenta abruption and also had short cervix .... My sweet baby boy lived 2 days but was born just way too soon.... I pray EVERY DAY that my sweet baby girl stays put.... however as I get close to that mark these are the random thoughts I feel throughout the day several times.....

I'm sure i'm not the only one who worries about this daily....

Thank you for reading! I'm just letting out some of my anxiety!