Depressed-help!

Kind of long story...

I live in very conservative Utah. I feel like i don’t fit in very well. I’m plant based, not lds (family is), love art, yoga and all of the natural everything ☀️

Recently i have been feeling very sad and somewhat depressed. I don’t have very many friends here, don’t get out much, it’s really cold and gets dark early which brings me down as well.

Last week we went to Hawaii! Anyways, while we were there i felt so much closer to what i want to be (I’ve felt like this when I’ve traveled to Bali and other tropical places). Like, i started eating better, felt happier, i even felt like i fit in with the people we met and that i had more in common with the locals i met, and the sun I’m sure helped. What I’m getting at though is, i feel like moving to Hawaii is probably not going to happen very soon and might not be the best choice for us. Maybe Florida, California or Oregon.

Since I’ve been home I’ve felt depressed and down again. I don’t have a job right now and am 4 1/2 months pregnant. I think I’m lonely and don’t have much to do. I want to be a full time mum once babe is here but what is a job that’s part time or something i could do to make the days not feel so long and depressing until babe is here and hopefully make the days good when he’s here as well. Something i can do when baby is here would be ideal but i just can’t seem to get out of this funk. Even yoga and meditation haven’t been enough.

Sorry if this post didn’t make much sense I’m just throwing up all my thoughts in hope for a line of help 💗 thanks guys 🥰