It’s killing me..

The wait to find out absolutely kills me! This is only my 2nd month TTC but I already feel defeated 😞 I have irregular periods and thyroid problems so I can’t see this being an easy journey for me. I’m filled with anxiety and fear that being a mom may not be something I’ll ever experience.. I just want to be able to tell my husband that we will finally have our baby, and tell my parents their first grandchild is on the way! I’m not going to spend money on tests.. instead I’ll wait for AF, because the tests only make it worse for me.. baby dust to all you ladies.. this journey can really be exhausting 😪