Weird feeling ..

So all day today I did nothing, I was bored so I was just sitting here watching tv then I felt this rush feeling that I was alone and didn’t have anyone feeling , and wanted to cry and scream.. like a little break down but I can control it.. idk it was a weird feeling I can’t describe in my mind. Like a anxiety attack but without the anxiety .. I feel alittle tired too maybe I’m just tired and need a nap.. but idk I do feel alone .. and dead. I really want a family of my own and kids but things aren’t going well for me..