I never want to see a baby again, unless its mine 🙃

My husband has a coworker who got pregnant a couple of weeks before I did just over a year ago. She was one of the first people we told, since we knew she had just found out as well. When I miscarried last December she was apologetic for a few days, but since then it's almost as if she forgot we were ever pregnant.

All she ever wants to do is talk about her baby and complain about how she's so tired and other "new mom" things. To cope, I avoid her. I don't go into their workplace when I know she's working and if I walk in and she's there, I usually try to leave before she notices me.

I don't want to be a bitch, and I don't want to come across as cold but every time I see her I just get angry and irrational and upset. Today she had her baby with her, the first time I've ever seen her baby, and I ran straight to the bathroom and cried for ten minutes.

Next month it's been a year since my miscarriage, and my husband and I have been trying consistently, for eleven cycles all together now, ever since and still nothing. I feel like I should be over it and I should be more mature about everything, but I also feel like she should be more considerate of complaining about being a mom, to me of all people.

I guess I have no question and I'm not really asking for advice, I just needed to rant somewhere where people will understand.