My heart is broken

AF came this morning...I really thought this month was our month. I have no clue how women can stay strong for so long because as soon as I saw the blood I lost it. I feel like I’m just being weak because so many other women dealt with infertility so much longer than me. For me it’s been a year and a few months, but it feels like forever. My heart is broken and now I have to tell my husband who was hoping this was our month. He’s been so excited telling me that there’s a baby in there he knows it. I’m not ready for the look on his face when I tell him. God help me because I’m a wreck.