I am so mad at myself.

I'm about 7 to 8 days dpo. I've had symptoms for a while now. I've been very emotional. When I took the test this morning it stopped immediately a quater of the way through. I got so fed up I threw it away . And hr later (yes I know this is a no no) I grabbed it to see what it did and I got this. Yes the second line is pink and yes it's way more noticeable in person. I also know I'm very early. What do yall think ?