Miscarriage

We would have been due with our second babe on February 6th, 2019. As we come closer to the date that our little babe would have been due, I am finding myself thinking more and more about our little one. We would have been about 30 weeks now and counting down the weeks until we would have been meeting our baby.

Would it have been a boy or a girl? Would they have looked like my husband? Or like me? Who would have have become? How would our daughter have reacted to having a sibling? Would they grow up to be close like my sister and I? The questions just keep coming, but we will never know.

We have been trying again for a couple months and every month when my period comes it is a huge letdown. We have many friends that are expecting and several are due close to when we would have been. This week when a friend posted their pregnancy announcement it took everything in me to be excited for them as my heart was tearing in two.

I believe that everything happens for a reason and know that we will be blessed with more children at some point, but for today I will let these tears fall and pray that tomorrow will be better.

Sorry for the long post, I just needed to get it off my chest.