Today, I know why my friends had invited me to the support groups

Sometimes I just don't want to talk about it, I want to escape it from any level.

I were yelling at it in my mind that leave me alone please, I cannot take it anymore. I just want to move one to next step in my life.

Today when I joined this group, I found out that there are actually many cases like mine which is sooo sad.

I was worry to stuck in the affections, but I had learned that PTSD will always with me.

And it will be good if you can find ppl who will understand you coz I have sooo many questions.

But the night mares still show up in your dream.

I still sometimes cannot even sleep.

And never be able to sleep alone in a space without a little light turn on.

I hated it even I already escaped to safe place finally and eventually.

But it caused me PTSD badly and deeply that I had never feel confident in the deeply of my heart.

Sexual assault survivors who were got hurt inner the family.

When you finally got out, you became orphan, you always feeling something is lose in your heart no matter what you had achieved in your life.

I did not know that.

I did not expected this feeling.

I also did not expected that the PTSD will always with me.

I am learning to accept that.

It was started to happen when I was 13, I posed my childhood and the pure, and the family at that time already that I just don't want to admit it and don't know what to do.

I realized this point this year.