I feel like I have no one to talk to.

My husband has been messaging his friends who are female telling them that we never have sex anymore and that I’m too big to actually penetrate and shit. And that we live separate lives. He doesn’t have a fucking job. Meanwhile I have been working 6-7 days for the last month. Like I already feel like shit about myself and then to read these things literally makes me feel like literal human garbage. Like I don’t deserve to have anyone. My mental health is not in a good place right now.