So what I feared would happen happened...

So this morning around 6 Am my husband gets a ride to work from my mom and dad bc he works with them. He gets a call from my mom and she tells him something then he says “ omg really, she’s not awake right now(talking about me), I’ll let her know when she wakes up”. Well like a little while later he wakes me up and was your sister is pregnant. Instantly my heart dropped and I knew tears were gonna come eventually. After he walked out of the room after talking about it for a minute I started to ball my eyes out!! For one my baby sister is pregnant(she’s only 19) and it really got to me think my baby sister is pregnant before me. The one thing I feared would happen. Now don’t get me wrong I’m happy for her bc now I’m gonna be an aunt!! But my husband and I have been trying for awhile now still with no luck. And it breaks my heart that I’m upset at this moment bc it’s a happy moment but I’m just thinking to myself like, I’m never gonna be a mom and experience motherhood. This truly is hard because this is something that I’ve dreamed of!! I don’t know how to cope right now but I’m definitely gonna be there for her and my niece or nephew!! Just thought I’d share this with someone, and I know I’m not the only one.😢💔