Please no negative or judgmental comments. Thank you💕

I’m just not feeling myself anymore. I’m constantly thinking negatively about myself, constantly frustrated that the house isn’t how I want it to be, and just exhausted.

I feel guilty if I sleep in. My fiancé is worried because he sees me getting more and more depressed.

I just don’t have the drive to get up and do anything.

I stayed up all night last night thinking about all the ways I’m already a terrible mom. I’m having a hard time connecting with my little one. I feel like I should be constantly over joyed and happy but I’m miserable.

I got an email saying my new company is official but, I felt nothing. I don’t want to be depressed again, I don’t want to be numb again.

I know the best thing is to just get up and start doing something but, it just seems impossible at the moment.

Any advice? I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life. I finally had a year being depression-free. I don’t want to go through this again.