Need to vent

Getting super frustrated with my husband.

Backstory: we went through a period of about half a year where he was abusing Xanax. It was horrible. He’d snort it and blackout, couldn’t remember anything, and he would be a horrible person while on it. It was a very stressful time because I had to stay strong and not breakdown when I wanted because I had 3 kids to take care of. Luckily he rarely did it around them so while they knew he was off, they didn’t know the extent of it. (He has since spoken to a counselor and gotten help and hasn’t touched it since). I think I may have a bit of PTSD from the whole situation, though idk if that’s something you can get PTSD from.

Anyway, I am pregnant with our first child (the other 3 are his from a previous relationship). We have been fighting more and more lately because I haven’t been able to do as much as he’d like (back pain, exhaustion, hip pain, fun pregnancy stuff). Every time we fight he likes to throw the “maybe we should divorce” thing into the mix.

It’s so frustrating and hurtful because (1) I feel like he’s very unsympathetic to what I’m going through and (2) I stuck with him through one of the most difficult and stressful things I have experienced without ever mentioning separation and he throws it out at the drop of a hat. It makes me feel like he’s not as invested as I am in this relationship, which kills me because I love him and I adore his kids.