Today’s been a bad day mentally for me. Worst thing is I can’t even put my finger on the reason for it. I feel so unwanted and like people don’t want to spend time with me and they’re not bothered about whether I’m here or not. It hasn’t felt this strong in a while, I was so so close to relapsing tonight I even had the blade in my hand, but I didn’t and for that I’m proud of myself. If anyone could please list their coping mechanisms below, or how they distract themselves when having similar episodes to this, I’d be so grateful, because I’m running out of ideas.