Dear depression

You have ruled my life for the past year and a half everyday you are the first thing I think you are constantly on my mind. I wish you would leave me alone at least for a few days. I wish I could have few days when I don't feel like crying. I wish I could just have a few days when I don't need to wear a mask to hid my emotions. I stay home from school because if I go in I will breach down and I don't know will I be able to build myslef back up again. I hid a lot from my family even though I k now it's wrong but if I tell them they get worried and I don't want that. So finally dear depression please fuck off and let me alone please