Dear ex

I hate that u some how have me wanting u again. I hate how after almost 9 years u got me wanting u again. I hate how im allowing it to happen to.. clearly i never got over u. But the feeling i had for u were pushed to the back of my mind. Now u are making me feel them and making me feel stupid for feelin them. We went from talk all day! Every night. To not talking at all. U say u love me but yet can go a couple days without talking to me. Mean while im sitting at home checking my phone every hour just to see if u texted... its crazy cuz right when im about to put my foot down and say fuck this im done.. it like u know and u call and u whisper stupid shit into my ear and im right back to square one! Ugh!!! Im so weak and pathetic