I hate myself right now

I hate everything about myself. Im 35 weeks pregnant and im fat. Theres all kinds of shit wrong with me. Im hideous, i fuck up all the time, and i have intense anxiety/social anxiety. I havent been able to go out in public. I wasnt this was before i got pregnant... i hate being pregnant. I just want her out of me. Im in pain constantly and nothing about this pregnancy has been easy. Fml. Im so depressed. All i can do all day is cry because im so miserable.