I don’t know anymore

So it’s been about four weeks since my husband broke my trust. To make it short he lied and kept something from me for months even before we got married. It crushed me when I discovered that he was keeping it from me. We worked it out at best as we could and since then I’ve just been trying my best to put my all into this relationship and make it work and start to trust him again.

Then last week he was hiding a little something else from me and it made me just numb. Numb to him and numb to everything about the relationship.

We’ve only been married for a little bit over a month, we were on and off from September 2015 to January 2018. Then we found out we were pregnant May 2018 and now got married in November.

I know I love him but my feelings towards him just haven’t been the same. It’s like I was sleeping next to someone I adored and thought the world of... now I lay down next to him sometimes and feels like it’s a stranger in bed with me.

I dont know HOW to deal with this or WHAT to do. Our baby is supposed to come in 5 weeks and I just don’t want this to continue by the time she’s here... but i dont know anymore.